My Alibi

clarity killed the machine...

my 22nd birthday is in exactly 1 month, to the day. im not really looking forward to it. something big is going to be missing. what is with me and libras? i am a libra, but i cant seem to get away from them. that or balding young men. you really do find strange things in the most unexpected places. how does that happen? i guess when you fall apart, as long as you keep moving, even if you cant figure out how to pick up the pieces, the important ones find a way to follow behind. thats life though. sometimes it takes the blurriest moment, to reach that point of clarity. i just need to figure out a way to always remind myself of that. i will try to be back here, more often.

today hasnt been going well...

so, i cant find a job. the hotel job didnt work out. thats ok. but im hungry, and i have no money for groceries. help.

am i more than you bargained for...

debauchery: seduction from virtue or duty (thank you m-w.com)

i could teach you, but i'd have to charge...

i hate storms. i dont know if its from growing up in michigan by the lake. the storms there are always so loud. but there was a storm here tonight, and not even a bad one. i was sitting on the couch "reading." and the wind really started to pick up, and im looking at the trees in the parkway, whose large branches seemed to be tossed around like twigs. and i literally said ut oh. i knew something bad was going to happen. my mom went on the porch, because she likes storms and the wind was coming from the northwest so it felt nice. the next this i know, the power is out and i hear a large thud. i knew it was bad. a huge branch from the top of the tree in the back snapped and it fell on the garage. and snagged the powerline with it. i was scared. i just feel like me and broken powerlines do not mix. it made for a boring night, i got on my laptop for a minute, but i just felt bad being able to amuse myself off of battery power when everyone else was so bummed out.

p.s. i got a new job, i start on monday, and i am nervous.

walking the line upside down...

i am stepping outside my box.

tonight. i dedicate those photos to ben, my ben, i know this isnt what you thought would happen. i am having more fun now that youre gone. make sure you see those smiles. you are missing something bigger than you will ever know.

fading in and fading out...

holy crap. tonight and last night, really turned out to be a weird series of events. im not even sure how everything happened. but, yes BUT, for the most part all of it was good. like tonight, on a whim we went to floyds, and erin and ty were there, and it was so much fun because they werent working, and we ended up getting shit for free. then, we decided to go to the hilton, yes i know, weird, for me, but my friend is the door guy and he just let us in for free. we ended up seeing so many people and dancing for hours and hours. and i probably danced with the cutest guy there. and i ended up with a cardinals trucker hat. sorry daniel. so many people from the past were there. the whole night was free everything, just crazy. we went back to tys to see his little tiny kitten, and its the cutest thing ever, im sure i will posting some pictures to flickr later today. but its so late i need to go to bed.

good morning to you, and me.