My Alibi

never smile or shrug your shoulders...

yesterday, last night, i wrote a bunch of shit, but it got all fucked up. so its gone now. anyways. i had hung out with some people i never hung out with before it was interesting. they all seemed pretty nice. me and my friends pretty much just hang out, with a little different content. watching movies, going to movies, sitting out in the middle of the country, dumpster diving. it was fine.
but last night when i got home, i was thinking about how everything and everyone wants everything to be fast forwarded. they want everything to happen without any time inbetween. i hate that. sometimes its nice to stop and just sit back. you know? i think it makes it easier to appreciate all the better things. i dont know. maybe thats just me thinking about that.

so, tonight. i went to holy land. soooo good. vegetarian buffet. the main reason i like that place is because its hot food. and i never have hot food at home. mostly like PB&J. i want another hot meal.
more on tonight. i went through a bunch of pictures and put them in an album i started a while ago. it was interesting looking back at all that shit. those people. i actually still talk to some of them when they are around. i also stumbled upon an old folder that i saved all or most of geoff letters he wrote me like 5 years ago. its crazy, it seems so long ago, and it wasnt at all. i wonder if he saved all the letters i gave him? that would be weird, just as weird as me saving his. i was really mean to him. im sorry for that. but i think he already knows that. hes with megan now. and thats good. as far as i know. its a dont ask dont tell type of situation, but im not sure why.
my feet are tired. so tired. i need a foot massage or two!!!!!!! that would probably put me to sleep right now.

on a gross note. madison threw up so bad earlier. and i went and looked at it a little while later, and i found out the reason why he barfed. he ate a freaking leaf!! for a second when it was happening i thought he was getting ready to die. i will be soo sad when that happens. hes my bestfriend. i remember when he hated me when i was younger and ran away at every chance. and would hide for hours and hours. and now i try to hide from him. he tried to sit on my lap tonight while i was painting my toe nails. then took a bath on my blanket that i wont be sleeping with tonight because of that.