My Alibi

why you'd want to live here...

(lyrics by death cab for cutie)

I'm in Los Angeles today: It smells like an airport runway.
Jet fuel stenches in the cabin and lights flickering at random.
I'm in Los Angeles today:
Grabage cans comprise the medians of freeways always creeping
even when the population's sleeping.
And I can't see why you'd want to live here.

I'm in Los Angeles today:
Asked a gas station employee if he ever had trouble breathing
and he said, "It varies from season to season, kid."
It's where our best are on display:
motion picture actors' houses maps are never ever current,
so save your film and fifteen dollars.
And I can't see why you'd want to live here,
Billboards reach past the tallest buildings,
"We are not perfect
but we sure try" as UV rays "degradate" our youth with time.
The vessel keeps pump us through this entropic place
in the belly of the beast that is Californ-i-a,
I drank from the faucet and I kept my repceipt
for when they weigh me on the way out (here nothing is for free).
The greyhounds keep coming dumping locusts into the street
until the gutters overflow and Los Angeles thinks,
"I might explode someday soon."

It's a lovely summer's day
and I can almost see a skyline through a thickening shroud of egos.
Is this the city of angels or demons?
Here the names are what remain: stars encapsulate the gold lame
and they need constant cleaning for when the tourists begin salivating.
And I can't see why you'd want to live here.
Billboards reach past the tallest buildings,
You can't swim in a town this shallow
because you will most assuredly drown tomorrow.

just a song that strikes me

Dear Sally.....

there used to be a show on the WB. it was about a young lady coming of age, during her college years. the trials and tribulations of finally realizing you are an adult and have the potential to make adult decisions about your life. she was from California then found herself in New York. i know it sounds cheesy, but it was one of those shows that is supposed to carry morals and lessons that could prove useful in the real world. like many one hour tv dramas. she used to send audio letters to a friend of hers. wiser and older of course. a quote from one of the replies from her friend is: "im learning little by little that we decide what our lives are going to be. Things happen to us. but its our reactions that matter."

call me crazy but that is food for thought.

Lonestar, where are you out tonight?

so there was a lunar eclipse tonight. i cant say i have ever payed enough attention to anything like it before tonight. it is surly something i will remember for a long time. when me and corey got to the skate shop, we pulled the bench outside and looked, for almost an hour. we went skating behind the meijer ditch tonight. no cops. thats a good thing. not that we were breaking the law or anything. if it would have been a warmer night it would have been awesome to drive out to the country and park and sit on the hood of the car and just look. nothing more nothing less. it would have been cool. but i guess behind meijer it wasnt too bad, off of route 4 where several car dealerships were, most of the lights were turned off in the lots.

post script: waiting for a phone call in the dead hours of the night isnt something someone like me should do. but i do, i do, i do.

hot damn

radio (lyrics by alkaline trio)

Shaking like a dog shittin' razorblades,
waking up next to nothing after dreaming of you and me
I'm waking up all alone, waking up so relieved
while you're taking your time with apologies,
I'm making my plans for revenge
Red eyes on orange horizons
If Columbus was wrong I'd drive straight off the edge
I'd drive straight off the edge

Taking your own life with boredom,
I'm taking my own life with wine -
it helps you to rule out the sorrow,
it helps me to empty my mind
Making the most of a bad time
I'm smoking the brains from my head
Leaving the coal calling the kettle black and orange and red
This kettle is seeing red

I've got a big fat fuckin' bone to pick with you my darling
In case you haven't heard I'm sick and tired of trying
I wish you would take my radio to bathe with you,
plugged in and ready to fall

Shaking like a dog shittin' razorblades,
waking up next to nothing after dreaming of you and me
I'm waking up all alone, waking up so relieved
while you're taking your time with apologies,
I'm planning out my revenge
Red eyes on orange horizons
If Columbus was wrong I'd drive straight off the edge
I'm seeing red

I've got a big fat fuckin' bone to pick with you my darling
In case you haven't heard I'm sick and tired of trying
I wish you would take my radio to bathe with you,
plugged in and ready to fall

Plugged in and ready to fall
Plugged in and ready to fall

Plugged in and ready to fall

alkaline trio was on conan o'brien tonight. crazy that they were playing coffee house shows not too many years ago, in our humble town of springfield. crazy i tell ya.

10 things i would like to do over the summer...

in no particular order

1. read 8 books
2. fill my sketch book
3. finish my basment
4. start running again
5. go somewhere i havent been before?
6. make a zine
7. write my own song on the guitar
8. take some good pictures
9. sell some of my pictures
10. figure out how to use my new camera